Vexed

Early in the morning i wake up, i feel very pek chek.
And i dun even know what's the cause of it. Jus know that life sucks.
And it seems like everytime after i go for trips, i will surely get this sulky feeling. Is it bcos i dun get what i want from my job and that i dun wish to end the holiday so soon?
Or is it i dunno what i'm pursing for. Be it controlling my own lifestyle, deciding what's best for me. Having the freedom to do what i feel like doing?

This morning, sis was talking to me. Reading off some health information from a brochure. And immediately, i get more and more pek chek with her. Reading out loudly and i couldn't possible ask her to shut up right? So i kept quiet. Doing my own stuff refusing to acknowledge her pressence. Am i very bad? Jus now sms her that i'll be on leave, going out with my friend. I jus really hope that she will not come bombing me with her usual question.
Like, you take leave for what? Who are u going out with? Where are you going? What are you going to do. What time will you be back?
Enough is enough. I'm really very tired of all her nonsense. How shld i come up with a plan to break off from her. I really feel its time i live my life without her commanding me here and there. Any kind soul (man i mean) out there willing to take her away? Really really wish for that day to come when she have her man and own life. Then she will stop pestering me!

Hmm... seems like i'm pek chek with her is it? Or i'm jus feeling low and somehow she happen to come into the picture? Making the matter worse?

ps: i've not receive the letter from the sch yet. Did i not make it for the enrolment?

* what a fucking boring life I have *