Angry at myself!

Yesh, i am angry at myself for the fact that i cannot go running lately. Why? Bcos my knee is painful and i don't know what the f*** is wrong with it. I had rested it for almost a mth but still the knee don't feel quite good to me.
I feel sooooo upset everyday. And when i hit the gym, i feel even more sad. Bcos there's nth much i can do in the gym except doing upper body or core muscles training. Which i don't feel that i'm working out hard unless i am sweating.
Sigh, so sian....
Already made appt with a sports doc next wk. And i really hope he can pinpoint to what's wrong with me and giving me the right treatment. Doesn't matter how much that consulation is going to cost. I jus wan to hit the road again.

Another thing that is bothering me so much is that my contract with my current co. is ending soon. And i really mean it cos my offical last day is on 28-Sep09.
HR already contacted me offering exactly the same terms as my old contract. And yup, there's no pay increment, no increase in leave entitlement. I haven sign the contract yet partly becos i dun feel like signing it. But i doubt i have a choice. Since i haven't been keeping a lookout on jobs, i guess i still have to go sign that stupid paper. Sigh!

Anyway, i'm heading to perth during the last wk of this mth. 1st time visiting Australia. Wonder how's the place like. Feedbacks from friends was that it's a very relaxing place. Food is expensive and there isn't much stuff to buy other than beach wear. Well jus take it as a relaxing trip before i go back to work on a new contract.